Awake’s Timeline

1:30 – Still. In bed awake with you on my mind.

1:33 – Nothing. Check my phone again to make sure there’s nothing new from you.

1:35 – Will. Force myself not to text you.

1:43 – Sink. Let the wound disperse the pain.

1:48 – Write. Words glide on the paper pad with the same rhyme scheme as the tear that flows down my cheek.

Sometime between 2 and 3 : I’m in the throws of my dreams

Silence. That is, until suddenly you appear.

Smile. My heart melts as I see your face.

Confusion. I see something cold imitating the sparkle in your eyes.

Sad. I know something is wrong; there is something negative in the air.

Reach. You’re distant, so I reach my arm out to draw you near.

Vanish. Your presence begins to fade until you completely disappear.

4:22 – Still. Open my eyes and remember the dream.

4:22 – Nothing. Check my phone to see if you’ve called.

4:22 – Sigh. Wonder if thoughts of me keep you up at night.

4:26 – Will. Threaten to will myself to shut you out of my mind.

4:38 – Sink. Think of how we left things.

4:52 – Write. Pick up my notepad as I put down the home of my freshly fallen tears.

5:28 – Awake. Funny to think I’m starting today exactly the same way I ended last night: In my bed wishing I was by your side, all the while struggling with your absence…just me and my thoughts of you. Drowning, yet totally awake.